The adoption process is becoming more real each and every day {eek!}. We’ve been hearing from friends and family that they’ve received the reference materials and we are plugging away at our paperwork. Such an exciting (and somewhat stressful) time.
Today I received an exceptional blessing an e-mail from a reader who will remain anonymous. I pray everyday that my journey will bless and encourage others. It’s a very difficult road to travel with so many ups and downs. I often wonder “Why? Why me? Why us?” and I believe the answer to my ‘why’ is to strengthen my faith, provide adoption/infertility awareness and bless/encourage others. This message was a gentle reminder that people are reading, encouraged and finding a greater appreciation for life. We all take things for granted, that’s simply in our human nature. A lot of mommy’s never realize how blessed they are… For people like myself, we can never prepare ourselves for these unknowns in our life. So, I stand before the throne of God with tears in my eyes and a very heavy heart believing his perfect plan will come to fruition — and in the mean time — I pray that he uses me and my journey as he did here. May you be blessed as I was and thank you once again, friend!
Hello, Kelly. I know you dont know me well, but I wanted to share something with you. Since I have read your blog and the struggle of conception for you and hubby, I have been moved with deep repentance before the Lord. Quite honestly, I have never had a “planned” pregnancy and whenever the wind blew, I got pregnant. I am ashamed to say, that until I met you, I have always taken conception for granted. My tubes are tied and those days are over; however, I felt compelled to ask God to forgive me for my lack of recognizing that children are truly a gift from God–and the creation of them as well. I love my kids dearly, would give my life for them in one flat millisecond or less, and they have kept me grounded in life. But I never thanked God for the fact that I was able to conceive so easily. I was always mad that I got pregnant. I was also unsaved and didnt know the Word, but still — pregnancy was not “my thing.”
Your openness to share what is going on has prompted me to thank God for so many things I have taken for granted. My mother is the oldest of 17 kids (grandma had 20 live births, three died). So I always thought I had the “get pregnant curse”. I now look back and see how foolish my thinking was. I was blessed by the Lord. Not saying you are not blessed, by no means is that what I mean. What I am saying is I took it for granted, as I had never met anyone who could not have kids. Your struggle has brought me closer to God–in more ways than one. I even thanked him for my running water today…LOL.
I am praying almost daily for you. I am not quite sure what/how/when the Lord will move on your behalf but we know for sure that He will. I heard Joyce say it is the “in-between” time that is the hardest. My heart goes out to you. Yet, I know and can tell in your writings that all that you were taught “in the way you should go” by your mom and dad is still in your heart. You are a woman of faith.
I hesitated to share this with you, for I dont know you well, and would never, ever want to offend you by my words. I am a very straightforward person and when I speak, it is usually from a heart of love and honesty..sometimes too much for people to bear. My words are meant to encourage you, that even in your distress, God has really used you to touch me and to thank Him for something that I always took for granted. I look at my children and my grandchildren with new eyes and a new heart now. I dont want this to sound wrong, but because of your pain, you have brought me to a place that I have not been to in a while–thankfulness. I even have tears of thanksgiving to Him as I write this.
I will continue to pray for you. May the Lord bless us both in this place of dependency upon Him for the unknown in life. And once again, thank you for sharing.
With Love,
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